think this weekend should be ok.. gonna go out with the guys tml for dinner.. my so called belated birthday get together.. sunday most likely going to sentosa with e camp guys.. they promised babes.. haha.. think i'll just go anyway so that i won't have to spend my weekend alone.. loser.. hoping to play bball over this long weekend.. ran today.. a break from doing weights since i've been at it all week.. slightly paying off.. arms a lil more defined now.. but weight doesn't seem to be falling.. lemme keep at it and see how things go.. should be ok.. i hope.. think i'll end here.

chiyu

i guess i finally understand now.. oh well.. che sara sara.. anyways.. things are more or less 'online' now.. headed to bugis with tim after work, hoping to buy my stuff but alas, i wasn't to be.. could find the damn place.. not wanting to give up, i went to tiong bahru plaza to search.. couldn't find.. just as i was about to head home disappointed, i decided to ask the information counter.. haha!! it one the 5th level, only accessable by the lift!! i bought the model, paint, brush and modelling cement and headed home contented.. was busy with fixing up my ah-64d apache the moment i got home.. not quite done yet, still got a long way more.. maybe a week before i can complete my 'masterpiece'.. since i'm currently at the bottom of life's well, i decided to keep myself entertained while i'm down here.. got a frigging headache.. knocked my head against some weights while i was in the gym.. wtf... bleah.. thanks to qinghao who has been attending yoga classes.. he tried to demo some moves and beckoned me to follow.. he did this table thing that required me to be arched backwards with my palm and feet on the ground.. being the oaf that i am, i soon lost balance and fell backwards, hitting the left-back of my head against the free weights.. bleah.. it hurts when i open my jaw wide or when i touch it.. knn.. oh well.. the daily gym visits are creating one hell of a toll on my body.. but hey.. tough times don't last but the tough man does.. or pain is temporary, honour is forever.. army lingo bullshit.. its been frigging hot lately.. drink more water peeps! lim zhui ho, lim zhui ho, lim zhui lim zhui pa buay doe!

chiyu

its back to my ancient hobbies to keep my mind of the troubles of the world and the pains of life.. its gym work daily now, something that i really want to put my mine into.. and basketball, the worlds number 1 sport.. and one of my very first hobbies (one that i haven't been in touch with for years), model building.. gonna invest in a couple of model planes/tanks/helis to spend my time on.. figured that since i've got a boring/rotten life already, why not create something that i like and enjoy it while i can.. oh well..

chiyu

its the way to my dreams.. basketball, the sport that never fails to take my mind off my problems.. been indulging myself in it for the past two days.. i must admit, i'm not the player i used to be, a lil rusty under the hoop but gimme a couple more games and i should be back.. i enjoy the competitiveness of the game, at the same time, when playing with my friends, the informal 'joke as we play' feeling.. how we would trash talk with one another as we try to drive in fast towards the rim, bow or laugh at each other as we perform a trick or stunt (or at least attempt at it).. we may not be pros but at least we have some style.. a 'jackknife' to send the opponent the wrong way, an ankle breaking move, a spectacular lay-up or dunk.. makes our day.. makes my day.. basketball, the way to my dreams..

chiyu

just got home.

so much for a birthday.. just another day on the calendar.. no wait.. bad things always happens on the 20th of april.. at least for the last 3 i guess.. stuck at home for more than 2 weeks on my 18th thanks to SARS quarantine.. almost hung myself.. spent my 19th suffering on pengkang hill.. got my 'scar of platoon 2' by that hill.. 20th was crap too..

so ladies and gentlemen..
here's celebrating 20 years of bloody bullshit..
think i'd most likely get run over by a car or something next year..
now that's depressing..

chiyu

ladies and gentlemen.. today's the final day of the PDS project in OCS.. YESSSS!!!!!!!!!!! NO MORE BURNT WEEKENDS!!!!!!!!! well.. at least for now i guess.. was feeling sick in camp the whole day as the audit was taking place.. it took the auditors the ENTIRE day to be done with us.. i'm pretty sure they'll certify us though.. haha.. well.. that closes another chapter of life in OCS hq.. eve of my birthday, headed to bukit timah with justin for dinner.. he was going to SIM for lessons so i kinda like hitched a ride with him la.. since it was my birthday, he decided to gimme a treat.. so.. thanks alot ah-chek.. haha.. k la.. u are only several years older than me but still, i'd rather call u uncle.. got the day off tml.. since its my birthday and that PDS is over.. don't know what i am going to do with the day though.. bleah.. well.. hope it'll be a good day..

chiyu

that was one hell of a cruel prank guys.. but i guess i deserved it after all those that i pulled on u guys.. haha.. how jervis was to be posted out to sembawang base, how the US military attache was not coming to the parade etc.. haha.. well.. a little spark in my oh-so-dark life.. i've decided to give it up, throw in the towel, put my hands up and surrender, and be the slug that feeds off sludge from the bottom of the ocean.. i guess this is as low as it gets huh?.. goodbye.

chiyu

sigh.. think its going to be another terrible birthday week.. wish me luck.. but if you can, change my stars..

chiyu

been attending the enhanced instructors' prep course (eIPC) for the past week.. basically meant that i had to sit through many hours of lectures/classes.. i could have died.. made many new friends though.. not much happening in my life as usual.. same old monotonous life.. oh well.. mental models, leadership frameworks... all the intangible up-in-the-clouds theories.. whoever came up with them must be darn free.. been having a headache today.. sudden pain pulsating through the back of my head.. must be the new haircut.. i look like a goofball.. as if i'm a cadet again.. well.. how i wish i am.. at least life wouldn't be so boring..

chiyu

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you are far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
Where a moment spent with you is a moment I treasure,

I don't want to close my eyes,
I don't want to fall asleep,
Cause I miss you baby,
And I don't want to miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do,
I still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating,
And I wondering what you are dreaming,
Wondering if it's me you are seeing,
Then I kiss your eyes and thank god we're together,
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever and forever forever

I don't want to close my eyes,
I don't want to fall asleep,
Cause I miss you baby,
And I don't want to miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do,
I still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

And I don't want to miss one smile,
I don't want to miss one kiss,
I just want to be with you right here with you,
Just like this,
I just want to hold you close,
I feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment,
For all of the rest of time

I don't want to close my eyes,
I don't want to fall asleep,
Cause I miss you baby,
And I don't want to miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do,
I still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

haven't been blogging for a long long time.. nothing to say except for how dull my life is.. its work work work.. kinda sick about work.. headed to zouk with luke and edgar on wed night.. how they managed to convince me to go, i don't know.. i guess i'm just so so bored with life i'd try something new.. didn't enjoy it much though.. luke and edgar were great company but i guess i just didn't like the environment.. had a couple of drinks (nothing compared to the 2 of them though).. headed down to the dance floor where both of them boogied while i just stood there awkwardly.. then it got real crowded.. music was loud, so loud i'd swear i'll go deaf.. some nice tunes but i was just waiting to get outta there..we left at about 2.. as i stepped out of the place, my ears were ringing.. couldn't even hear properly.. -_-" then i saw a couple of pple laying on the pavement/parapet.. with a pool of puke in front of them.. yuck.. the dark side of clubbing i guess.. one thing's for sure, i doubt i'd ever go clubbing again.. bleah.. but thanks for the exposure guys..