caught 'ray' at ps yesterday.. not too bad a show.. music was fantastic as expected.. fans of r&b, jazz, country.. this is a must watch.. thought that 'georgia on my mind' was fantastic.. somehow, the whole feel of the song struck my heart.. when the first word bloomed from the singer's lips, my heart missed a beat.. came home late that night.. spent the whole of today stoning and feeling sick.. think i'm down with something.. or must be something i drank yesterday night.. dunno.. feel like playing basketball.. dunno why.. haha.. must be my ps2.. just got a new game to keep myself busy.. nba street v3.. slick moves, dizzy dribbling.. not human.. the dudes in the game jump so high, u'd swear they could jump the board.. in those 'special combo dunks', the players have 'moon weight' air time.. floating in the air, performing countless stunts before the pass it to the next guy who just jumped up in the air as well.. this goes on until ur entire team had touched the ball mid air.. finishes off with a spectacular jam in the end.. weird.. but good fun.. haha.. don't mind me.. just being crazy.. out

chiyu

And now I'm all alone again
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to
Without a home without a friend
Without a face to say hello to
And now the night is near
I can make believe she's here
Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping I think of her and I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head

On my own
Pretending she's beside me
All alone I walk with her till morning
Without her I feel her arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And she has found me

In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is her and me forever and forever

And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to her
And although I know that she is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us

I love her
But when the night is over
She is gone
The river's just a river
Without her
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers

I love her
But every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me
Her world would go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known

I love her
I love her
I love her
But only on my own

been trying to keep myself busy lately.. did some work back at the office.. the rest of the time, i indulged myself in runs, gym and playing basketball and soccer.. today was friday so it was rather relaxed in the office.. headed to play bball in the blazing hot mid day.. played from 12 to 1.. headed back to the office all wet.. did some work then headed to the street soccer court at about 3+.. played till i'm too tired to move.. keeping myself busy keeps my mind off things.. works ok for the day but at night, when i'm too tired to keep myself occupied, things come back to my head.. every night as i lay in bed, my mind wonders about and sometimes, i can't help but feel terrible.. it hurts badly.. i don't know if it will heal.. maybe i just don't want it to..

chiyu

i don't know.. so confused, it hurts.. so much that its almost physical.. caught in another loop in life's rollercoaster.. up and down. stomach churning.. i want to throw up.. or just roll over and not stand up again.. i just want to run away, far far away.. not turning back nor looking forward.. i don't want.. heaven's playing a trick on me.. over and over and over.. its not right.. neither is it fair.. its too powerful for me to fight back.. this sense of helplessness.. there's this strange sensation in my chest.. like my heart is being gripped tightly.. squeezing and squeezing.. a vacuum.. i want to scream out loud.. stop playing with me.. u up there.. i'm not a toy.

chiyu

If you're not the one
Then why does my soul feel sad today?
If you're not the one
Then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine
Then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine
Would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away
But I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you
Then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you
Then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me
Then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me
Then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take itI don't understand
If I'm not made for you
Then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart
And pray for the strength to stand today
Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you
Then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms?

words from the heart.. i've never been this sure and clear before in my whole life..
pls have faith.. kiyakaha..

chiyu

haven't been doing much lately.. been pretty stressed and tensed up by work.. all thes desk work makes me miss going outfield even more.. there's always something to see outfield, despite being tired all the time.. you actually feel like a soldier out there.. in the office, i'm just wearing green for the sake of it.. officeboys in green.. how ironic.. went to for dinner at holland v with a good friend yesterday night.. today, headed to town for makan with the guys.. tml's another work week.. hope this week would be much more interesting..

chiyu

life's getting more and more monotonous.. work's boring, social life's none existing.. i've got nothing to talk about except for boring work.. been doing a bunch of crap in camp.. kena arrowed to do this and that.. after completing the investigation report for that awolee, i've been arrowed to sort out some accounts for the proposed new ocs structure.. all $24 million of it.. had to go figure by figure to find out where they've made errors and then sort them out.. finally completed it just today.. just when i thought i'm through, i kena arrowed again.. this time to work out a new list of instructor reshuffles for the WHOLE of ocs.. darn.. i hate staff work.. no choice but to suck thumb and go through all this shit on my own.. hai.. been feeling a lil down lately so i'm on a workout scheme.. been running after work and slugging it out at the safti gym these past few days.. am determined to keep up with this regime..

chiyu

Why do birds suddenly appear,
Everytime you are near?
Just like me,
they long to be, Close to you......

Why do stars fall down from the sky,
Everytime you walk by?
Just like me,
they long to be, close to you.........

On the day that you were born the angels got together,
And decided to create a dream come true,
So they sprinkled moondust in your hair
And golden starlight in your eyes of blue...

That is why, all the boys in town,
Follow you, all around,
Just like me,
they long to be, Close to you.......

On the day that you were born the angels got together,
And decided to create a dream come true,
So they sprinkled moondust in your hair
And golden starlight in your eyes of blue...

That is why, all the boys in town,
Follow you, all around, Just like me,
they long to be, Close to you.........
Just like me, they long to be,
Close to you.........

went to my boss' place for new year visit.. her place was real crowded, over 30 of us were there, wrecking havoc.. didn't know more then half of the people there since i'm new so i spent much of the time stoning away in my little corner, waiting for time to go by.. wasn't such a terrific week.. pretty disappointing in fact.. didn't have the mood to do anything upon reaching home.. kinda wasted my day away lor.. its sunday tml.. hopefully life will be a lil more interesting before the week starts again.. back to work.. sian.. =(

chiyu

well well.. how time flies.. the last chinese new year i had, i was still bald! we didn't do much visiting this year.. somehow, the mood just wasn't right, my grandad just recovering from his heart surgery and all.. reunion dinner wasn't much of a reunion after all, since my grandparents and aunt/uncle didn't attend the dinner at tai seng restaurant.. this teochew restaurant has been around even before i was born! my grandpappy and the owner of that place are pretty good friends which meant that whenever we had a family dinner, it would be at tai seng.. man.. i've been to that place and eaten the exact same menu so many times, i can recite the dishes and the sequence in which they would appear in.. imagine what my mom and dad and to go through.. they've been going there for goodness knows how many years! the food's so-so but since my grandad wants to go to that place, what can we say? haha.. spent the first day of the lunar new year visiting for the first half of the day.. at night, we entertained guests at our place.. we somehow always spend our 1st TO 2nd day of each lunar new year with this family, either at our place or theirs.. we've know them for quite a bit and are pretty close.. ok.. maybe not that close but much closer than any other family friends.. spent the entire 2nd day of new year at home, tending to the millions (ok.. maybe not millions) of guests that comes to my place to try my mom's cooking.. although i spent the entire day indoors, i was pretty spent tending to all the guests.. headed to garrie's place at night to visit since he has to be at the airport by 2am.. that's in about 1 1/2 hours from now.. bon voyage bro! take care and have fun while training! that's that.. bleah.. just realised that i still have to go to work tml.. although i forsee that tml's gonna be a darn slack day, the thought of having to go back to camp is just depressing.. most of the people in my branch has taken leave.. think i'll just spend my day at the gym or on the track, at the stadium.. might as well spend the time keeping fit and toning up since i'd most likely have nothing to do at the office anyways.. as usual.. think i'll get some shut-eye now or i won't have sufficient rest for a safe training tml.. man.. the weather lately's a killer.. drink more water peeps.. water's good for u.. lim2 zhui4 ho4, lim2 zhui4 ho4, lim2 zhui4 lim2 zhui4 pa4 buai3 dio4!!!
chiyu

its a free day.. and i'm darn bored..

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? Chia Chi Yu
2. WHAT COLOUR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? er.. black adidas running shorts with white stripes running down the sides..
3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? cicadas chirping from amongs the brush?
4. WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? nissin instant noodles.. no lunch at home..
5. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE? white
6. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? bright, sunny.. hot..
7. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? my mom...
8. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? has to be the eyes..
9. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? ok la..
10. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? well.. erm... hmm... how about... BORED!!
11. FAVOURITE DRINK? ah.. ice cold water...
12. FAVOURITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? er... hmm.. i don't drink.. i'm the sort of loser who would order a cuppa joe in a pub..
13. FAVOURITE SPORT(S)? basketball.. running..
14. HAIR COLOUR? black
15. EYE COLOUR? black..
16. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? nope... 6/6 vision..
17. SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGES? sis 17, sis 24
18. FAVOURITE MONTH? non actually but recently, jan's been a fav..
19. FAVOURITE FOOD? pizza!!
20. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? wah... can't really remember... its been a while..
21.FAVOURITE DAY OF THE YEAR? 29th jan
22. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? well.. usually.. yes.. but...
23. LIKE SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? happy endings...
24. DO YOU LIKE SUMMER OR WINTER BEST? winter's more fun..
25. HUGS OR KISSES? can i say both?
26. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? relationships...
27. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? choc
28. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? apartment, with my family?
29. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? sharkmen 6 by owen west
30. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? ah.. the mouse? -_-"
31. FAVOURITE BOARD GAME? risk!
32. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? played on my ps 2.. slept..
33. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? haha.. what a question.. anlin should know this one...

chiyu

my job's just become a tad trickier.. i've been arrowed to be the investigating officer for an awol/deserter case.. this dude ran away from camp for 114 days but was arrested and sent to SAF detention barracks.. i went down to DB on wednesday to see that dude.. questioned him in a small interview room.. just like that u see on tv, but only, smaller.. just completed the report.. gotta go down to DB again to let him initial on the papers and the guilty plead papers.. kinda empathise with him though.. headed to town after work to walk walk with anlin.. went home at about 11.. was real glad to be able to spend some time out and about.. all the work is starting to stress me out.. but it still ain't that bad.. yet.. life's good..

chiyu